With light and love to all of you......
Letting go of those people we love dearly that no longer serve our highest good is one of the most difficult things I think as humans we ever have to do. Especially when we have memories of so many other lifetimes with these individuals that were also difficult; there is a sense of desperation to make it right and perfect this time. And when it clearly is not working out for the both of you, when the communication is lacking and the language translations are nothing but cross purposes all the time, letting them go feels like the only answer. When one is giving and the other resisting, when one is open and the other open sometimes and closed others, when one heart sees the truth and the other sees nothing but the here and now which is only part of the wonderful story of the two souls and when both feel the connection strongly but one can not find out what that means to them and sees only the surface of life and not the amazing and beautiful world they have shared that lives underneath, the pain and sadness experienced by the other one is profound and devastating. To see and understand the complexity of this kind of love in this lifetime is a rare opportunity like a shooting star, unpredictable and special and is the burden carried by those who see life as a continuum of the thread that was started with that first lifetime and the joining together of those two souls. To see karmic links resolved and repaired is the longing of so many of us. And yet others are so tuned into this lifetime as if it is the only one and the importance of such things like karma and past lives is of no consequence to them is so painful to those of us who know the importance of such opportunities. When 2 souls who have been together many times before see each other for the first time in a new lifetime there is a recognition and a sense of knowing the other without even knowing their names in this lifetime. When touching physically feels like going home and a safe harbor to both but one soul feels and sees the pain of this lifetime more acutely and can not consistently connect emotionally to the space and time of the precious gift of this kind of connection the other soul must let go. And the pain of thousands of lifetimes is felt by that soul that understands the truth and the unresolved pain and love that exists which crossed the boundaries of life and death. When the winds of change encourage us to shift our perspective and become who we are meant to be we want to feel the connection to all those who have been the collective of souls returning to our lives every lifetime. But we do not always have that opportunity to be in the presence of an enduring love that was lost to us perhaps many times in other lifetimes from that soul passing into the void or never returning from a long journey. One soul always is waiting for the return of that other soul to feel the presence of that one love that always felt right and perfect. So how do we let go of this kind of a love? The love that pulls those strings to our hearts and rips at the very fabric and unravels them leaving them tattered and torn. The repair is long and arduous but hearts are strong by the very nature that comprises them and the energy that they hold weaves the new light and life into them as we send love and compassion to those souls who we are supposed to be with. When to be apart is more painful than the very real pain from any physical cut with a knife we must not underestimate the care we must take of our bodies, minds and souls. Time is our teacher and our medicine which will help to resolve within us the distance we feel from the soul we long to reconnect with. But separation is also a concept of the mind and if we can know and understand that this kind of connection is never really far from our hearts this is a consolation that will move us through the pain and sadness. And if we can always keep the door open to those souls who have inadvertently hurt us by not understanding the importance of this heart and soul connection perhaps by some miracle the angels will help them see the value of the treasure they have been offered. The once in a lifetime opportunity to come together after so many lifetimes of being torn apart by circumstances. The time may come where they see and understand how rare and beautiful is the time spent with a soul mate connection. And we can still love them from afar and wish them happiness and peace. Moving forward and breathing through the pain is the only option when the body, mind and soul is longing to feel once more the touch of their hand or their voice in our ear telling us they love us and want to be in our lives. Breathe, breathe and remember that no matter how much debris is covering the love and the understanding there is always the possibility that they will uncover it someday and make their way back to us. And in the meantime we are alive and have purposes to fulfill and destinies to meet. So in your pain, smile through the tears and move forward with your lives......I will do the same. Your heart is strong and will always persevere.
With light and love to all of you......
Fire is the element most feared and avoided yet it is the most cleansing and clearing. Our feelings of passion and anger are described as fiery or full of fire when we express them without holding back. And sometimes that expression of passion is cleansing especially when we are fed up with our circumstances and our relationships. So some of you know I am a Gemini (an air sign) but many of you may not know that I am more fire than I am air, as I have 5 planets in Fire signs. So this in simple terms means that where ever the planetary constellations were in the sky at my birth certain planets were featured as dominate in the signs of Fire. Sagittarius (Moon), Aries (Mars) and also Leo (Venus) are all in my chart. So when I tell you I am fired up about something.....take me seriously! So I also have grounding Virgo (earth sign) as my ascendent which helps keep the fire balanced. So suffice it to say when people piss me off. A. It takes awhile to get me to the level of anger. And B. My response is quick and cutting in fact I used to cut off at the proverbial knees those who were unfortunate enough to illicit anger from me. This was when I was younger and not so in control of my fiery side when my mother used to call me the Guillotine Queen with boyfriends who were less than cooperative even with my very expansive Gemini qualities of allowing but when they crossed the line that was it..........done, fini, exit stage left and no looking back. Now as I have gotten older I have gotten soft and more pliable and forgiving which is a good thing and much more conducive to a calmer lifestyle which I have become accustomed to and yet sometimes things get to a level where I clear the decks and heads roll. Now mostly it is directed at my dog who refuses to stop digging holes in the backyard or my cat who yowls at me incessantly and refuses to use her cat box but will find any basket in the house filled with paper. But sometimes the anger is deeper and more profound. That conversation we all have with ourselves about how others treat us and what is allowable and what is not......or how long do we put up with treatment that normally we would be on our friends asses to not put up with and move on......So I am at that point. The point where I am telling myself enough is enough and really what is the point of continuing the energetic pull of people who treat me with less respect then the rest of the people I know care about me both male and female. Where the indifference is so acute and the disrespect is so evident as to show who these people really are and how they feel about me regardless of what they say, actions do speak louder than words. So the point of no return is a stance I almost never take but I do make exceptions and although forgiveness is now in my repertoire and moving forward in a positive way as well I find that eliminating those people who no longer resonate with my highest good just need to go and not come back. They need to stay gone unless deep apologies and remorsefulness is evident in their words and actions. And even then forgiveness is one thing but having them in my life in an ongoing capacity is not really an option unless they have decided to work on the very issues that caused them to be in a position to treat someone they say they love in such an unloving way. Having disregard and unkindness is not acceptable nor is a lack of courtesy. Now granted we were not all raised by Emily Post but there are certain accommodations we all make to regard peoples feelings especially those who have a special place in our hearts eg. our children, you just don't want to hurt those you truly love. Which brings me to the part of my anger which burns the brightest. I can not abide when people lie to me! It is like the worst salt in the wound of betrayal and unfortunately I am always underestimated in my ability to be intuitive and know when things are not as they seem. Even lies of omission are just as bad.......not telling someone what is happening and letting them possibly worry about your safety is to me the biggest middle finger to the heart of someone who cares about you that I can think of. Now this is par for the course when you are raising teenagers but when a grown person does this it is seriously time to exit. And the more disappointing is when they are indifferent to your anger and they claim they don't need to consider your feelings in any way, shape or form, that they are not going to honor your love and concern for them......this is the pain that gives way to fire burning anger. And I know that these are all reflections of how these people treat themselves inside and my sadness is profound when I have allowed them to treat me the same when I know better. So I have been pushed and pulled for the last time and am taking back the power I gave away by being so accommodating and understanding. My fire has risen and I am burning away all of the energy I spent trying to be something that would fit in with crazy demands instead of being myself, ironically my loving and affectionate self, the one most people would adore to be with and appreciate. So with a huge sigh and a sense of relief I let go and allow the ashes to fall and now will wait to emerge from these ashes as the beautiful, phoenix and find someone who appreciates my loving ways and all of my affection. And this someone will reciprocate in their own way their affection and love for me. And honestly I wish peace and joy for all those who push love away and treat it like a disease or something that is less than the amazing gift that it is. Love comes and when we reject it and ourselves and only keep the pain and suffering alive in our lives we become much less able to enjoy our lives and create happiness. So I will continue to wish healing for all those who have a difficult time accepting love in their lives. May we all find and resonate with the love that lives within us and see the beautiful reflections that mirror back to us all that we are.
Love really is the answer my friends! Bless it in your lives!
Rain, rain do not go away we need you so much today and tomorrow and the next day too!! Feeling like the energy has finally shifted just when I was thinking that I would etherically die of thirst......my soul has been longing for something that has been gone since I can't remember when. The feeling of joy and connection with an amazing soul was the very nectar of life and I felt that they understood me on the deepest of levels and yet they have slowly turned away from me. Maybe it was one of those soul contracts where I was to learn my own value through the heartache of being on my own while the other soul traversed their own life and I had to watch on the sidelines waiting for a time that would not come......a time I wanted to manifest where we would shoulder the burdens of life together and be a team. But some people are lone wolves and I am wired to be part of a pack and I still will seek that elusive life long mate that until now has been out of reach. I know what I want and am allowing it perhaps to find me...... But for now the rain is washing away my feelings of sorrow and despair at being left behind while standing in the rain watching someone walk away.
How many times do we allow someone to exit our lives before we say enough already? There are those souls that seem to be like the best addiction to our souls and they come and then go and the soul with-drawl is like the emotional equivalent of the opium addict. Why do we allow them access to our deepest selves only to watch them slowly and painfully withdraw? Even when they open their souls the widest only to close it and push you away. These soul lessons are my burden this lifetime and if you experience this too please know that the sun will shine on you again!!! As I look at the sun shining in my backyard I am trusting the angel guardians of my soul that they will not allow me to be pushed beyond the breaking point but I will walk right up to the edge of the cliff, contemplate jumping, but then finally and stubbornly release the burden of lifetimes of pain and watch the wind carry it away to be turned into something beautiful and free. What we all want is to experience love and to give love that is all......but some souls do not see this as the truth they think that the daily life, keeping the lights on and working 18 hr. days will keep them from the death that awaits them someday and the realization that connection was what was most important.....that love is all we have in this life to learn and every life since the beginning of time. "Love is the answer to all of the questions in my heart" Jack Johnson gets it and I feel this acutely. So how do we let go of those who are supposed to be in our pack that decide they would rather be alone? We let them go.....we love them and let them leave.....we wish them all the best in their lives and keep our hearts open and send them love anyway. So as I experience the dark night of the soul through it all I continue to love because that is all there is......unless we like Luke Skywalker are temped to give in to hate and anger and the dark side.......But I for one will not let the death of Obi-Wan Kenobi be in vain. So knowing that the love is inside of me and that the reflection is gone not the actual love I know I will be alright. But those reflections are so strong as to appear as the real thing. Mirrors are tricky that way. Especially when they physically touch you and it feels like you are home. To feel home in the embrace of someone who walks away feels like the heart is being ripped from the body, it tries to stay connected and the cord of attachment stretches until the emotional pain is unbearable and releasing is the only choice or insanity becomes the next phase of life. Then the pain of absence that dull, aching old pain that says you are nothing without the reflection, must be endured and that is the place where the soul fights for it's life to wildly punch into the air where the voices of doubt and condemnation scream their taunting's. This is where the crazy starts and the soul must look to the light for relief and help. The love that lives in all of us must be recognized and felt for ourselves.......even when we lose the battle of having our home walk away. So as the rain starts to fall again the tears follow suit washing away the pain and the healing of the soul begins. And as the loss is felt and sadness matches the clouds in the sky we must hope that the soul that walked away, our home away from ourselves, sees the truth and returns someday to tell you they understand now what the value of your love is to them and bring you into that embrace and the return of the home you have always yearned to return to, the shelter of their hearts and as you draw them into the shelter of your own heart you let them see the love that never left but was simply in a beautiful box within your own heart longing to be opened. For hope springs eternal and love is always the answer so we are always protected even when we feel that all is dark and despair will never end.........the angels know the truth and now so do you!! So when the pain seems too much to bear and the rain of your soul pours look for the rainbow it is always there you just have to look for it......
To the love and to the pain. May we all keep moving forward towards the light and the truth. The darkness will yield to the light it always does!! Sending you all love, feel the truth within you........
My soul is a wild wolf who roams the inner landscape of my life. It is the part of me that does not ask for permission or acceptance but brings clarity and definition to any situation. And I have kept her too long in the shadows and cowering in the corner of my psyche pacing back and forth wanting to escape the prison of my limited thinking. I now have released this beautiful creature into all areas of my life where she can run in the meadows of my mind and roll on the grass and drink from the river of emotions that dwell in my heart. Here she will thrive and recover and join her pack and the mate that has been waiting for her to return to herself. It has been too long that she has been caged and not allowed to live in freedom and choice to wander where her heart longs to go. What does this wild part of my soul tell me? I am just learning the language that she speaks, her howls of greeting to her pack and the long howls that she sings to the full moon. We are just learning to co-exist together in freedom again in this body and she is patient with me as I learn to not be afraid of her strength and fierceness. She will push me to persevere through difficulty and not give up on my dreams and passions. I will feed her my love and admiration and walk with her through the forest of my mind and let her lead the way to my Avalon the beautiful place within that is home and hearth. Where I am always accepted, loved and given the tools to use to continue the work I have set out to do on this planet. To guide people to their own inner homes where peace and joy reside. I am ready for the journey home to myself and so glad I have a trust worthy wolf companion at my side. May you all find the wildest part of yourselves that guide you on the path home to yourself. This woman is grateful to the Powers that be that brought her to her knees to show her what needed to be released within me. To all wild urges that live within us may we feel the freedom of truth!! Release your inner wildness to find your way back to the truest and most vivid part of yourselves!!
Blessings to your wild and fierce selves!!
Life can feel like a marathon of activities and to do lists completing one after another in a never ending process. But perception can be the blinders we need to take off and begin to see the beauty of each moment that comes instead of the endless tasks that are before us. So I am going to present a visualization for us all to have as we enter the busiest time of the year. Looking at the image I chose to illustrate this blog post I realized that it conveys the exact feeling I wanted to present to you in this guided moment. Picture yourself on the road in the image and then close your eyes for a moment then open them and. see the sunshine glowing through the leaves of the tree and feel the warmth through your clothing as you stroll peacefully along this beautiful path. Let the colors absorb the worries in your mind and see the nature before you speaking to you of the glorious abundance in your life. Feel the crisp breeze and the refreshing feeling if brings. Smell the trees and the earth beneath your feet as you crunch the leaves that have fallen. Be absorbed in the messages of fruition that are apparent in this scene of beauty that are mirrored in your own life and feel yourself relax in the feeling of gratitude for your life. Now bring into the scene someone you love dearly, a friend, or lover and partner. Feel the lovely happiness welling up in your heart as you see them walking towards you. They are truly happy to see you and walk with you in this amazing place. You walk with them side by side or hand in hand and you feel content and peaceful and full of joy in this moment. Everything is as it should be.....nothing to do but be in this place and admiring the beauty. The hours fall away as you stroll on this path, feel your body and soul being filled with the energy of this place and the love you feel for life. Notice that you feel stronger now than when you began to read this. You have more energy and confidence and yet you are peaceful and clear. Now I want you to come down the road to where you parked your car and without entering into the to-do's yet just sit there and say a prayer to the great Spirit about everything you are grateful for and love in your life. Invite Spirit into this moment and ask for help in any area of your life that you need it and feel the help that has entered your life to get everything done that needs to be completed and feel the that you have accomplished it all without stress or difficulty. Open your eyes and realize that this lifetime is a gift and you can receive all the help you need in your life as things become hectic. And when you need it come back to this post and read it through and remember that this moment is all there really is and enjoy what is present in your life!! And don't forget to tell those who mean the most to you in your life that you love them and cherish them in your life, they will feel it and like a pebble in a pond will ripple this effect out to the world. You are the change you seek and the love and peace that will make the world right again!
Peace and many blessings of continued support in your life now and always!!
My favorite magazine of all time is Victoria and usually has all kinds of photos of beautiful things and beautiful places to visit. They feature a wonderful array of locations throughout the world from Verona Italy to London England to Cambria CA. USA and homes or stores that feature a by gone beauty and architecture. So the latest one that arrived is about welcoming Autumn, which is my favorite time of year. And as I was reading one of the articles a phrase caught my eye "I want my life to be a theatre for my dreams" a quote from Wendy Addison who owns a unique store in Port Costa, CA. Her store is a tribute to a life long love of all things Victorian and antique. She was quite young when she decided to begin her collection which eventually turned into a store. And as an artist she uses all manner of antique processes including an 1890 Challenge press. This dedication to a passion spoke loudly to me and the question formed in my mind "What am I passionate about?" And the answer was simple and so obvious, people. I am a helper of mankind and always will be. My business is all about bringing illumination to peoples lives of what they are not seeing clearly, from my Wisdom Readings to my Body, Mind & Soul Mentoring. But this is what I do with my energies to fill my day with a sense of satisfaction that I have been of use. Being of service is such an important aspect of my personality. And I have recently learned that I can be of more use when I am taking care of myself and my own wellbeing carefully and with attention to what it is I need from my body to my soul to my mind. And when I ask my soul what it needs I hear this soft voice behind all the ruckus in my mind......it says, love above all is the most important thing, partnership, connection and day to day interaction with a loving relationship. I was surprised to hear this voice as I have been a solitary person for so long. I raised my son by myself and tried to make it work with a few tugs that pulled my heart strings but they did not last as the road was a challenging one to navigate while being the only parent in the day to day activities with my son. So I made the choice to raise my son and focus on his well being and put my heart on hold. This was a huge challenge as my heart just wanted to be shared with someone who was available to receive and give to me in return. After a very challenging "work" romance that almost destroyed me, I swore off the entanglement of the heart and moved to another city and forward to take another job and felt extremely determined to focus on the job at hand and my son and yet the Universe had different ideas and on my first day I met someone that would change my life completely. It was a connection that was undeniable....you know the kind where you feel them walk in the building without actually seeing them. You know when they are near and walking towards you even though your back is turned. The energetic and karmic tug on my heart and soul was too much and even though he was in a relationship at the time he eventually approached me and we shared moments of connection in the midst of a work environment that were full of fire and passion. Even though we often were just having a conversation in the chip aisle of this store we knew we were really speaking a language of lifetimes of knowing one another. So when it ended and he chose the other girl to marry and entered the military I was again alone to pick up the pieces of my life and make lemonade out of lemons. But he never forgot me and I never forgot him. Years have passed and it seems to be that we continue to enter each others lives periodically. This last time was different as we had become very different people but the deep underlying connection was still there even though the military had taken some of the happiness away and the divorce was weighing on his heart. I was healed from a misunderstanding that had plagued me for 7 years and we were moving along a beautiful path of connection and meaningful collaboration. But fear entered the picture rearing it's ugly head and throwing around dark and foreboding images and promises of the return of the plague and slowly doors to his heart began to close and in desperation I started to throw rocks at the wall and tried to break it through sheer force of will. But this only proved to create stronger and stronger reinforcements until the path we were traveling became a tangle of weeds and bushes tearing at our skin and clothing. Darkness and mist entered in thick layers of misunderstanding and we lost each other. When I finally emerged from the forest I realized that I had left my heart in that tangled briar of anger, sadness, judgement and words which were said that can not be taken back. So how does one live without ones heart?? I have decided that the only way to recapture my heart is to go back into the forest and search for the lost connections the beautiful threads of light that linger in the wake of this storm. Even though I may not ever find him again I will find my heart and find connection that is beautiful and meaningful but the knowledge that we did find each other again and again perhaps we might be graced by the Universe to find each other in that sunny field of swaying grasses and tall oak trees will never leave my consciousness. And in the meantime I will honor that soft voice speaking to me underneath all the loud cacophony of traffic that fills my head that love above all is the most important thing, partnership, connection and day to day interaction with a loving relationship. And if it is to be with this man whom I know I will always love and yet do not always understand and if we heal our connection then I will be grateful for the opportunity. I mean 3rd time is a charm so I hear.......
Well here's to our heart's longings my friends!! Do not give up on love and love will not give up on you.......
All my blessings of love to you,
My heart has been challenged and my ego is bruised and love seems like something that is just out of reach.....So what is the reality of this perspective? Well, love is that intangible energy that is always present in our hearts, that beautiful unconditional offering we give to family, friends and significant others until something happens that we feel is unforgivable. Then we stop loving or so we think. We actually stop sending out our conditional expectations and stop talking or take a break from connecting to the people that have hurt us or did not give us what we wanted or needed. So where is the balance of finding those that will offer us what we need and moving away from those that are not able to give to us ? And how do we still love those who are not able to give us what we want and need and offer to those that can that beautiful effervescent love which resides in our beings and wants to be shared and reciprocated? I mean is there anything more beautiful than watching 2 people give and receive a loving touch or look?? I have tried to reach across the miles and connect to a heart that is closed to me and the sadness that the miles are not the issue but the devastation that resides behind walls of concrete surrounding this heart has brought me to a place of deep despair. And if I could break down those walls I would and if I could bring peace to that soul I would......but I was not invited in behind those walls to help dismantle the pain and disillusionment that created them in the first place. Instead I was kept outside as I tried to serenade and throw roses over the tall walls but the flowers simply fell at my feet and the song eventually faded and my voice became silent. So walking away seemed the only choice and I have found that I am now on a path through the forest with many trees to find an easier road that leads to a garden to walk in and touch the heart of someone else that wants to walk next to me and pick some flowers for me and maybe sing me a song or two. It is an interesting journey and the sadness is still fresh and tears still keep coming but I am facing the situation head on and braving the fog and stumbling as I navigate my heart in this new territory. And there is a new soul that has embraced me and speaks sweet words to me and has an openness that is refreshing and feels like a healing balm to the wound that is my heart right now. I am taking life slow as I heal and pick up the pieces of my heart to put it back together in a bigger puzzle with more lessons learned and love to feel and give. So now as I take a deep breath I feel the pain and still get up and keep moving forward to live my life as bravely as I can with an open heart and an open mind to new ideas and new people that will share with me their wisdom and version of how they see the world. So Carpe Diem!! Take a chance on love!! Don't hold back on those that want you, touch them and tell them you love them even if it scares you to death....take that step and be brave. It just might be the love you have been looking for all your life and be the most beautiful experience you have ever had. Risk everything for this expression of unconditional love.....Good luck and may the cupid send you arrows that are true and land on the perfect match!!
We all want peace and yet sometimes we don't want to do the work to attain this peace.....I for one do not always want to eat my peas just because they are good for me!! Eating my peas can look like exercising, meditating, practicing patience with self and others. Sigh....I even will binge on bad TV at times just to spite the ever wise nose on the face of my reality. So what to do when all we want to do is dig into a pint of ice cream with a spoon after eating that greasy piece of pizza. Let the moment be what it is and not judge. Let the situation and/or person be what they are and let go of being some kind of perfect drone!! We are human and as such we are built to withstand mistakes and messy situations. We will eat healthy again, we will endeavor to meditate everyday without fail, we will have patience just when we need it most and we will survive the apparent lack of perfection that stares us in the face. In fact just when we think we could not be more of a failure something happens and we move into that super human capacity and move mountains for someone or say the right thing to help them in their moment of need. We can run the marathon of life just by being available to everything that life gives us.....the happy, the sad, the not so happy and the not so sad. We just need to pace ourselves and let up a little on the "I gotta to this one thing perfect then I will let up on myself....." nope we need to let up on ourselves now, in this very moment.....give ourselves a break from the perfection notion. Feel your way through the resistance of wanting to appear like we have it all together and are totally organized. Like this is what will make us worth the love and attention because "we have earned it". Remember the ugly duckling.....he was in the wrong family, a duck family, who all really loved him but to others he was the ugly one, the one who wasn't quite right to look at. Where do we judge ourselves as the ugly person that we do not want to see? What judgement do we hold ourselves to as people and feel we are not fit enough, not attractive enough, not kind enough, not understanding enough, not enough, not enough.......enough already!! You and I are enough!! WE are attractive enough in our own unique way, smart enough, kind enough, even worthy of love. We are each one of us a beautiful aspect of the Divine in human form. So stop beating yourself up about the one time you didn't have it all together and act perfectly. Relax that ever watchful eye of judgement that it not roam over your life and destroy it and the beauty that surrounds it. Everyone has their moments of glory and amazing timing and everyone has moments of anger and spite. Apologize to yourself for being the harsh critic, apologize to others for hurting them. We are all doing our best and must acknowledge this to ourselves and recognize this in others. We all want love and attention regardless if we have earned it or not and frankly the Powers that be love us no matter what and always will so why don't we take their example and bring a more accepting and appreciative attitude to this moment with ourselves and everyone who is in our lives. Patience and love to all of you no matter what moment you are in.....difficult or exhilarating!! Love yourselves through it all......
The way through is sometimes challenging, heart wrenching and beautiful at the same time. The way through is not easy but worth the effort and time it takes to travel these woods, "The woods are lovely dark and deep but I have miles to keep before I sleep" Robert Frost knew the journey of which I speak and how the dark and lovely forest of our shadows can be appealing to us so much so that we often linger in them for years until someone or something helps us to see the light of the sun peeking through the leaves in the canopy above our heads and we see the truth is somewhere in the wide open spaces and the unprotected meadows of our lives. So I invite you to take that journey with me for a moment to the amazing places you have yet to explore in the penetrating sunshine that will illuminate your soul's dream which lives from lifetime to lifetime until we embrace it's path and set out to commit ourselves to the quest of how to implement the mission set forth before us. This mission is our life-path our true destiny the way in which we shine our particular light into the world. And when we do shine our light something happens to us inside....we become able to see our lives not as a day to day existence but of a deeper and more important set of obligations to our hearts and souls to each other and to the whole universe that is unfolding as we set foot on our own unique path and change the course of our own akashic records, the fabric on the loom of life. How we begin this epic story is with listening to ourselves and the voice deep within our hearts. The soft encouraging voice telling us that we are the Divine emanation of the Ultimate Creative Force in the Universe. That each one of us is the chosen one and the hero in our own story. We are the Merlins, King Authors and Morgan La Fays, the wise ones we seek are with in us and they have been the whole time. And they have waited patiently for us to respond to the call of our path, the way through the forest of our minds to the shining world where we see clearly the flowers and grasses and trees in perspective, the mosses and the animals who live in this extraordinary world we have created. When we see this scene unfold we know we are a part of it not separate from it but the very heart of it. We can dance in the sunlight of our own hearts seeking the brilliance not on the outside of ourselves but from the shining light that lives in our hearts and souls. We can shine it out to echo the sun and help each other grow and flourish in this amazing world. The forest will alway be there for us to rest and hide away for awhile but now we can choose the way through and get back to our destinies without feeling lost and abandoned because we will never again abandon ourselves or our path and the important work that is unique to each one of us. Now we can see the forest for the trees and even more than that we can see the winding rivers of emotion and navigate that as well. We can feel that which is within us as the truth of our humanity and the value of being in these beautiful bodies illuminating them with our Divine light. Now we can shine like the stars and and be content with knowing we are a part of the cosmos and the entire Universe not separate from but part of the whole amazing intricate weaving of life and all that is there. The way through is not easy and "we have miles to go before we sleep".....but remember that "the journey of 1000 miles begins with a single step" Lao Tsu. And taking that first step can be scary and take much courage but the sunshine is beckoning you out of the forest so heed the call and travel towards the life that is waiting for you!!
Many blessings to you on your path!!!
"I feel good today" is the song playing by Thomas Rhett as I write this sentence and it actually expresses perfectly how I feel in this moment.....life has become a flowing river and I am so content. The metaphorical sunshine is warming my face and body and the warmth has penetrated my mind and heart. Love has become a state of being and the hope that I had has become a sense of reality and the ease with which I am flowing through life is unbelievable! And the wise words of Yoda echo through my mind as Luke said " I can't believe it" and Yoda replies "And that is why you fail" but somewhere along the line I choose belief instead of doubt, choose love instead of fear, stood on my own two feet and faced the greatest of choices being happy or being sad. Sometimes we do not see the choice and it looks like a situation we can not surmount or a mountain too tall to climb but perception is the biggest cliff we must jump off of to see clearly our situation. Jumping off that cliff for me was taking a trip to Seattle and I am so glad I overcame my fear and "Just did it" as the shoe company recommends!! What waited for me in that watery and amazing city was a miracle of connection, a level of fun full of smiling clouds which rained down the joy my heart was waiting for. Now I know what people mean when they say love is easy when you are with the right person. It is NOT perfect, definitely a challenge to the ego and the smaller self but when I chose to be an adult and stood still I found the most amazing moment of simplicity where acceptance of myself and the other person became the most important truth I have ever experienced. Freedom and letting go became easy. I was more interested in being close instead of being right. Touching the heart of things instead of micro-managing the moment into a neat and organized fashion. This way of relating was messy and visceral and scary but real and poignant and beautiful. I now find myself feeling peaceful although I miss seeing his face everyday now that we are in cities which are so far away. I realize that what is inside of me is what I have always looked for outside of myself. So when a romantic reflection came along I saw it as outside of myself and when it was gone I was sad and distraught. Now I see the truth of how beautiful his reflection is as a unique and beautiful expression of that which lives in me. I am never away from the feeling of connection with him now. He is always with me because I am the love I have been looking for my whole life. And he is that reflection. I see how amazing the right connection is now. I am so blessed to know him in my life and experience his unique emanation of the Divine. The yang to my yin, god to my goddess......and yet I am no longer looking for completion from outside myself I see us both as whole and complete, NOT perfect but we are perfectly imperfect and a beautiful combination of strength, vulnerability, stamina, wisdom, beauty, fun and a healthy expression of the love that lives in both of us. I am so grateful to this amazing man that has been so generous and thoughtful to bring to me the greatest gift of his time and energy and the most wonderful trip I have ever had!! Thank you for the celebration of my birthday with the awesome trip to Seattle that I will never forget. YOU had me at airport when you said "Ann?" I am looking forward to more fun and smiles and reflections of who you are and who I am with you!!
Much love to you Andrew:)
I am an intuitive Body, Mind, & Soul Mentor. Helping people become more in tune with the themselves and their spiritual guides resulting in clarity and awareness of the Divine that lives within!