Most of the time I am rather Zen about the whole Christmas holiday tide and feel that baking is my solace and go to activity when everything outside gets intense. But so far with the work that I do I am content with experiencing my everyday flow of blog posts, seeing clients, teaching and creating my classes and taking a few photos of inspiration and loading them on instagram!! Wow what a manifestation this has been since I quit my full-time drag job and created my dream work to inspire other's in their lives through my intuitive work. At first the process of allowing was painful and sketchy. I mean what is one supposed to do with the whole day that sits in front of you like a big yawn?? Yes it took some time to adjust to moving slowly and in an unhurried fashion through my morning but once I learned to become present with my process I loved the quiet and peaceful time to contemplate my life and what I wanted in it. How I wanted to experience the work that I do and what I hoped people would feel and experience from the work as well. Lots of thinking went into these first months and sometimes there was not a lot of answers but lots of space and uncomfortable feelings that went with it, guilt, fear, anxiety, hope, fierce determination and lots of other feelings in fact pretty much the whole gamete was present. Overwhelm was the most prevalent since I needed to bring in income and at the same time take the time needed to heal my body from the past 12 years of stress induced adrenal fatigue and pressure to be all that I needed to be for my son as a single mom. How does one take care of oneself when they have been on a roller-coaster of working full time and then home school tutor, maid, cook and cheerleader?? Well it ain't easy I can tell you!!! At one point I had a dog, cat, rabbit and various rats and one bearded dragon.....so yah I guess you could add zoo keeper to the mix. So that was my life and all of a sudden my son graduated from high school and I quit my job. Life adjustment is really a large understatement! But as they say "time heals all wounds" I slowly adjusted to the process of healing my life from the scattered and often exhausted never ending moments. I moved into flow and unhurried thought processes. Gardening was the biggest solace as I could really work up a sweat and dig and dig and pull weeds with gusto and really feel like I had accomplished something. Then I realized that being tired physically was just sort of shifting sideways with trying to be busy with my life instead of just living my life. I still love gardening and getting sweaty and seeing the beautiful results but also enjoy sitting and sipping ice tea during the time I work and resting and surveying the accomplishments with joy. This was not always the case when I did anything before. It was done because there was a fire behind me and it needed to be done right now and fast!!! Even now I see remnants of this tendency during my deadlines for classes but now I see it for what it is, the need to survive and feel control over my life. Really the biggest lie I told myself was that as long as I finished everything perfectly my life would work. And I almost killed myself in the process of this mind set. Now I work because I am called to do something fun and only when I am inspired to do so. My classes are designed to accomplish multiple tasks, self healing, create interest, bring joy and share what I know. This process has been such a wander lust experience. Seeing the light in front of me and seeing how I can bring it to others and share the beauty of the moment is all that I focus on now and the difference in my everyday experience can be explained in 2 words, joy and bliss!!! I am so grateful I took the plunge into what I love doing and what I am called to do in this lifetime!! I am super blessed to have such a great team of Spirits who guide me everyday and cheer me on when I listen and take care of all my needs even when I think I am doing it.....hahahaha. They take care of me and I in turn take care of others when they let me inspire them!!
So if you felt inspired by these words to make a change in your life I highly encourage you to take the plunge and do what you love and if you need inspiration along the way I am here to help!!! In fact I am offering a December and January special of 20% off my coaching packages and 15% off of my readings. So no excuses people make those changes and choose to enjoy your life the way you want!!!
Just a note if you do want to make an appointment just send me an email by checking my contact page!!! I am here to support your new life and the new you:)
Love and light to all of you!!